I have been well, I hope you are too, spring has sprung and where I live is blooming with color.
If you have been following me for a little while you may know that I am entering the final stretch of my college education. Wow. It is even weird to say that because it has been such a long journey. As I type this away on the eve of my last art history midterm (yes it is 11:50 pm, yes I need to sleep I know) I realize that a year from now will be much different than any other year from now future I've experienced. For the past 6 or so years I could safely say " a year from now I will be in the Spring semester/ or quarter of school and I will probably be taking midterms" This is the first time where there is no certain future. This thought both terrifies and excites me. The last time I stood upon this precipice I was 17 and picturing my college life, even then I knew that school was ahead of me(I didn't know it would take this long but hey, life happens)
Since I was a kid I knew I would graduate college with some sort of degree and here I am about to do it. Exciting right?! I should be jumping for joy at finally reaching one of my life goals!! Butttt... I'm not. Why? I thought I had time to figure out what it was I was going to do. I reassured myself that "hey -- you've still got time! I'm sure you'll have it figured out by then!" I haven't! For me, the logical way to go about life is to create a goal, stick to the goal and wrap it up nice and neatly and then move onto the next one, the problem is, there is no other goal for me to start, and this is a fact I have been trying to come to terms with.
So here we are and its 12:09 am on May the 1st. I wish I had an ending to this post that was more than "I don't know, I guess ill keep trudging" but thats it.
If you have any advice or general words of wisdom leave a comment. I'd love to hear any and all.
Thanks for reading,
Robin
P.S. Here's a picture that makes me feel warm.
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